housing.

today when dana came, she acted like she wanted to help me out with housing a lot more.. I'm not sure if it's because I emailed Erin asking her to get someone to help me with housing, seeing as they were reducing my health care services and I felt like I was being pushed out in the cold because I wasn't sure IF anyone IS helping me with housing and to find other services that I'll need to live in New York.
Brandon was telling me outside that his dad was helping him get his stuff ready to move to a different apartment next month and when we were in the elevator, I just said to him, "well.. my ILS worker has been acting like she's ACTUALLY going to try to help me find housing in New York now because I just had a CADI meeting and the lady who was evaluating me said that the next steps were to work with my ILS worker and case manager to find resources and information about moving to New York." then Brandon said to me, "wow! you're ACTUALLY doing this! alright alright." I don't know what the fuck he thought I was doing when I said I was moving to New York, APPARENTLY he told Janet a long time ago (when the bitch was still my PCA) that I'd never move to New York. I don't know if he thinks that I just said it to sound cool and get attention but if that's the case, he's an idiot because he obviously doesn't know shit about me. I don't wanna get stuck living here because I don't have anything here and one might say- "you can always meet someone there!" no. I've been here long enough. this place doesn't interest me. there's nothing going on around here that makes me wanna stay here and my family doesn't reach out to me (in case someone might try to use that argument) and they shouldn't have to. they have their own lives. I WANT MY OWN LIFE as well. JUST because I have a brain injury should NOT be a DEATH SENTENCE to me.. I SURVIVED the car accident.. DIDN'T DIE. SO I SHOULD GET TO LIVE WHERE I WANT TO LIVE.